Being unemployed on my birthday is kind of a downer. I’m just sayin’… for anybody pondering unemployment as a celebration activity. Go with a nice dinner and a cake, or maybe a weekend in Vegas. Don’t get me wrong, there are some upsides – more time, less work, fewer responsibilities. But there’s also one major downside – less money. And don’t forget that sinking useless feeling, that little voice that keeps going, “pss, pss, you suck, get a job, loser.” He’s a fun one to have along for the ride.
My birthday fell on a weekend this year, which would have been a day off anyway. And wifey picked up the tab, so it’s not my money. Of course, since we’re married, it kind of is. This wasn’t a milestone birthday; the late 30s all kind of feel the same. Age is catching up to me, though I still look reasonably young on top of the accumulating aches and pains. Still retirement and an easy life of panhandling to supplement my 401K losses is decades away.
The day was relaxing and enjoyable, if cold and rainy. I slept in a little and then did a whole lot of nothing around the apartment. Wifey went to a baby shower, and I fielded phone calls from family members. The first came from one of my brothers, who just happened to call that morning because he was bored. He figured out, with some prompting, that it was my birthday and, after hanging up, called the rest of my family to remind them. Some already knew. Others, having genes similar to mine, needed the reminder.
A couple hours later, I went off to the movies by myself.
I laughed, I cried. Then I went for a salad to get me through to the tasty dinner in my future. The location was still a secret, but knowing wifey, it would be very good. From there I wandered back home, stopping off for coffee at the cafe that banished me with locks on its electrical outlets. I cursed them while handing over my $2.
The rest of the afternoon was quiet. I can’t tell you what I did, because I don’t remember, not because I’d have to kill you. Maybe I watched TV. Maybe I played video games. Maybe I watched TV with the intention of playing video games, but never got around to the video game part. Cable can do that to a guy.
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My birthday was a two-parter, the second half of which happened a few days later. Wifey secured tickets to the
I forgot all about unemployment during the birthday festivities, which took some effort. But now it’s back to my regularly scheduled life. Days run together, and progress is slow. Passing another birthday without a job is starting to weigh heavily on me. I’m questioning everything. My job search doesn’t seem to be going anywhere, no matter what I try. There has to be something somewhere. I just haven’t found it. And I’m kind of at a loss.